Had a anxiety attack today thanks to London Underground!
Had a job interview today and I think that went well, but I had to leave in a hurry and the lady dealing with the paperwork was rather good about me leaving in a hurry.
So I managed to get on the underground in plenty of time to get to my gender clinic appointment. I had time to spare or so I thought. Told by a member of staff that there was no problems on my line! Oh yeah, so tell me why we had to stop at EVERY SINGLE STATION and wait "for gaps in the service". That doesn't sound like normal service to me!
My planned route should have got me to my appoinment 30 minutes early but I got there at 20 minutes late! That's almost an hour behind schedule!
I thought I was going to pass out in the waiting area. I hate my anxiety attacks and this was bad because I was away from an area where I felt safe.
Thought I wasn't going to get to see the Doctor but he graciously agreed to see me but I had to have a shorter appointment. But he was rather good about it and we talked about various options open to me regarding my hair. He talked about a prescription medication that acts as a testosterone blocker that will help the hair on my head but also slow the growth of body and facial hair. This feels like good news to me, I think.
Right now my head is a mess and I'm feeling a little emotional. I feel that the past couple of days and the quantity of painkillers is clouding my thoughts somewhat. It's making it hard for me to deal with the stress I'm feeling.
I feel like crying but I don't know why.
I'm not going to take any painkillers before bed tonight as I'm not in pain. I just hope I sleep alright!
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