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  • 03:09 Right then its gone three am and my presents still aren't wrapped. Suppose I better make a start! #
  • 01:03 has had a most excellent Christmas! #
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  • 04:09:36: Right then its gone three am and my presents still aren't wrapped. Suppose I better make a start!

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  • 15:53 @SindySpyder Sounds like an ex-gf of mine! #
  • 19:09 Has been bitten on nose by a stroppy bird who now wants to play kissy kissy! #
  • 19:27 Gooddam it, It's Shrek! Why the heck am I crying! Damm these emotions! #
  • 21:05 Well the duck is out of the oven and the skin is crispy. Tomorrow we'll find out if its edible. #
  • 22:32 Really should start to think about maybe wrapping up the christmas presents! #
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  • 16:53:45: @SindySpyder Sounds like an ex-gf of mine!
  • 20:09:39: Has been bitten on nose by a stroppy bird who now wants to play kissy kissy!
  • 20:10:17: RT @SindySpyder: Need more female superheroes in Latex Bodysuits kicking ass!
  • 20:27:23: Gooddam it, It's Shrek! Why the heck am I crying! Damm these emotions!
  • 22:05:12: Well the duck is out of the oven and the skin is crispy. Tomorrow we'll find out if its edible.
  • 23:32:32: Really should start to think about maybe wrapping up the christmas presents!

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  • 17:07 doesn't know why but I feel a little emotionaly fragile! I keep bursting into tears at the slightest thing! #
  • 18:56 @MistressRouge Looking hot Mistress. I too have hair additions too! #
  • 18:58 May have overcooked the rice pudding a bit too much!!! #
  • 21:46 @MistressRouge Oh its not clip in hair Mistress, I've had purple added! #
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  • 18:07:09: doesn't know why but I feel a little emotionaly fragile! I keep bursting into tears at the slightest thing!
  • 19:56:48: @MistressRouge Looking hot Mistress. I too have hair additions too!
  • 19:58:25: May have overcooked the rice pudding a bit too much!!!
  • 22:46:08: @MistressRouge Oh its not clip in hair Mistress, I've had purple added!

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Well I have made a list of my less vanilla resolutions for the new year on Informed Consent, but I shall keep this clean for you lot.

  • Get rid of television! I don't get enough done around the flat and a lot of projects have gone the way of neglect because I am constantly channel surfing until I find something interesting. Half the time I don't even care what I'm watching, it's just shiny noise tugging at my attention! So I have already cancelled my television licence and on the 1st of January I shall cancel the subscription to my cable provider. This resolution will also save me a few pounds a month. I shan't get rid of the idiot box, I shall keep it for playing DVDs and games on. But this won't take up so much of my time.
  • Arts & Crafts. A few of my projects have been cast aside and I'm hoping the TV resolution will inject both time and cash into a few of them.
  • Knitting. One of the things I would like to do is knit. So I have decided to knit myself a blanket for next winter. Big, purple and cosy. Looking at patterns now.
  • Model Railway. This has been an ongoing thing and it's making headway. The track is laid and the trains run! I may need to lift some of the track though to fit junction motors. But the next major step is landscaping and ballasting.
  • Cycling! This is one of those issues that I really need to deal with. I use to be a big cyclist. I loved just setting out on a ride and coming back 6 hours later. But then depression hit hard and I lost my job. Losing my job meant I had no reason to use the bike to commute and having no job meant I got depressed, that meant I didn't want to leave the house. I just wanted to mope around the flat watching television and surfing the internet! Generally avoiding life. So I have decided to get back in the saddle, make use of an exercise my bike to get my fitness and stamina back. Then I plan on some long healthy rides.
  • Routine. I need to sort out a routine, my life is a tad up and down because I am unemployed. It means no routine. This will change with a regular routine. This may sound mundane and a tad dull but I think it affects me more than I know. The removal of television will mean I won't be planning my day around the TV schedule as well.  I'm not sure what the routine will entail but I shant be anally rentetive about it. It will carry a degree of flexibility.
  • Dental Hygiene. As disgusting as this sounds my teeth cleaning is shoddy because of the depression. I was barely looking at the toothbrush twice a week. This has led to my teeth basically rotting and that's just not good. So I shall strive to improve on this and try to repair some of the damage done. I already have had to have a very painful root canal and I don't plan on anymore. I also hope to get my teeth "restored" to something that doesn't look like some Grecian ruin! But that last one will cost money and is a future dream.

I think that's it for now. 2010 means a new me, literally! I even plan on getting out more as Nicola to more regular events and venues.


Shameless edit!
  • Photography. I forgot to add photography. I have a decent enough camera and I want to make more use out of it.
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creative
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I'm not sure why but lately I have felt more and more emotionly unstable. The slightest thing seems to tip me over the edge and I start crying.

I don't know why I feel so off balance.

Maybe its that time of the year!

I guess I just feel lonely!

Current Mood:
melancholy melancholy
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  • 09:39 For 2010 I think I'll get rid of the television! #
  • 11:43 All hail Futurama, with its implied cryogenic and improbable time travel silliness! ALL HAIL HYPNO TOAD! #
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  • 10:39:24: For 2010 I think I'll get rid of the television!
  • 12:43:51: All hail Futurama, with its implied cryogenic and improbable time travel silliness! ALL HAIL HYPNO TOAD!

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  • 12:53 @Jon_Magic re:last post! Oh wow!! You have your own hate page! Public order offences! tehehehehe #
  • 12:54 is considering burning the furniture to keep warm! #
  • 18:50 OMG RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE IN THE TOP SPOT! GET IN THERE! WOOHOOOOO!!!!! #
  • 19:15 I can safely say with some certaintity that I am indeed a very happy bunny thank you #RATM4Xmas #
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  • 13:53:41: @Jon_Magic re:last post! Oh wow!! You have your own hate page! Public order offences! tehehehehe
  • 13:54:02: is considering burning the furniture to keep warm!
  • 19:50:24: OMG RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE IN THE TOP SPOT! GET IN THERE! WOOHOOOOO!!!!!
  • 20:15:28: I can safely say with some certaintity that I am indeed a very happy bunny thank you #RATM4Xmas

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  • 17:48 Dear Santa, for Christmas I want to be a big black dragon with scaly wings and a firey magic breath!!! #
  • 19:51 Dear Santa, I no longer want to be a dragon. I now would like for a christmas a working goblin flyer, thank you! #
  • 20:59 This weather is probably going to bankrupt me! #
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  • 18:48:32: Dear Santa, for Christmas I want to be a big black dragon with scaly wings and a firey magic breath!!!
  • 20:51:40: Dear Santa, I no longer want to be a dragon. I now would like for a christmas a working goblin flyer, thank you!
  • 21:59:07: This weather is probably going to bankrupt me!

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  • 08:17 Blimey, my last tweet was two days ago! #
  • 08:19 Job interview today, feeling lousy because of yesterdays root canal. Hoping hot shower will clear my head! #
  • 17:52 I feel a little emtional and just wants to cry, but I don't know why! #
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  • 09:17:27: Blimey, my last tweet was two days ago!
  • 09:19:27: Job interview today, feeling lousy because of yesterdays root canal. Hoping hot shower will clear my head!
  • 18:52:11: I feel a little emtional and just wants to cry, but I don't know why!

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Had a anxiety attack today thanks to London Underground!


Had a job interview today and I think that went well, but I had to leave in a hurry and the lady dealing with the paperwork was rather good about me leaving in a hurry.

So I managed to get on the underground in plenty of time to get to my gender clinic appointment. I had time to spare or so I thought. Told by a member of staff that there was no problems on my line! Oh yeah, so tell me why we had to stop at EVERY SINGLE STATION and wait "for gaps in the service". That doesn't sound like normal service to me!

My planned route should have got me to my appoinment 30 minutes early but I got there at 20 minutes late! That's almost an hour behind schedule!
I thought I was going to pass out in the waiting area. I hate my anxiety attacks and this was bad because I was away from an area where I felt safe.

Thought I wasn't going to get to see the Doctor but he graciously agreed to see me but I had to have a shorter appointment. But he was rather good about it and we talked about various options open to me regarding my hair. He talked about a prescription medication that acts as a testosterone blocker that will help the hair on my head but also slow the growth of body and facial hair. This feels like good news to me, I think.

Right now my head is a mess and I'm feeling a little emotional. I feel that the past couple of days and the quantity of painkillers is clouding my thoughts somewhat. It's making it hard for me to deal with the stress I'm feeling.

I feel like crying but I don't know why.

I'm not going to take any painkillers before bed tonight as I'm not in pain. I just hope I sleep alright!
Current Mood:
drained drained
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Woke up today and my toothach was really bad!

Managed to get an emergency appointment at the dentist.

Had root canal treatment! Had to have an injection! Actually had to have four injections before the pain went away and the area went numb!

Now my jaw aches and so does the tooth. I was told this is to be expected for a couple of days.

Arrrrgggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

Now I'm off to bed loaded with painkillers and alchol, and I hope I'll get some sleep. I have a job interview tomorrow and I have my gender clinic appointment too!

Bad time for toothache and emergency dental treatment!

Oh And I promise in the new year you'll get more than just my rambling from twitter! Hopefully!

Guide, I don't know how you do it!

Current Mood:
sore sore
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MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY.
Current Mood:
creative
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  • 14:05 Found the perfect little black dress in a charity shop for a fiver! Unfortunatly it was a size to small! :o( #

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